ambulance, anyone?

I think I think too much. I believe I think too much. I think too much.

And it’s bugging me that my head is always filled with thoughts I shouldn’t be thinking of. Filled with the noise that I could barely manage. When will I walk the street that my mind is at peace, serene? When I close my eyes the noise grow louder and the images more vivid. When I try to distract myself, it’s like my thoughts plague me more, pushing their way to the surface and saying to my face that I can’t escape them. It's crazy and it's driving me crazy.

I want to run away. Literally.

0 couldn't resist blurting something out
Got naked on Friday, March 13, 2009
1:56 PM

Behind bars.

Come join me in my secret garden
Where my roses bloom so red
Where the tweet of the birds is my music
As I dance, washing the noise in my head.

Come join me in my secret garden
Dance with me under the rain
Forget the world around us
Numb ourselves from all the pain.

Come join me in my secret garden
Just lie with me on the grass
We’ll tell each other stories
And see through each other’s glass.

Come join me in my secret garden
Where I cry myself to sleep
Where the only thing that matters
Is I have the liberty to weep.

Come join me in my secret garden
The haven where i pour my heart out
Pay attention to my silly musings
Look at me like you've got no doubt.

Come join me in my secret garden
We’ll drown out all our fears
We’ll cuddle, laugh, and play
Don’t mind all those frontiers.

Come join me in my secret garden
And tell me who you are
As we lie under the night sky
Let me hear the music from your guitar.

Come join me in my secret garden
But please make sure you are the key
That you are who you say you are
And that you would see me as me.

Guni-guni

Magt-twenty one na pala ko. Ayoko pa. Pwede ba wag muna?

0 couldn't resist blurting something out
Got naked on Thursday, March 12, 2009
11:50 AM

march 6

She should be deaf
She should cover her ears
Try her best not to listen
Or she would hurt them.

She should be mute
Should keep her mouth shut
Never utter a word
Or she would hurt them

She should be blind
She should cover her eyes
Stick with the dark
Or she would hurt them.

She should be numb
Spare everyone from the hurt
Pretend she doesn’t feel anything
Or she’ll cause them pain.

0 couldn't resist blurting something out
Got naked on Friday, March 06, 2009
3:55 PM

Second hand

The clock is ticking. Fast. I'm turning 21 in less than a month and I dread that day.

1 couldn't resist blurting something out
Got naked on Sunday, March 01, 2009
7:19 PM

Drops

The rain pours.
Memories flood me.
Now it's not just the sky that cries.